( It's quite an imaginative romantic love-story. It'll just be a coincidence if the storyline matches with someone's personal life. )                             

Akash, a very smart & handsome guy of 20, in nature, is both romantic as well as sentimental, glorious as well as gloomy, furious as well as calm. Everybody possesses both pros n cons & so does he. He's a bit egoistic, narcissistic, introvert & an ambitious guy. However, his good qualities are quantitatively predominant over the bad ones. He ponders a lot, dreams a lot, imagines a lot, expects a lot & this is his disease. He conveniently trusts upon others which is the only his fragility whereas struggle is his strength. He's courage, confidence & patience, never loses hope in failure, never gives up challenge, never gets frustrated, never gets exhausted, never lags behind, never surrenders, struggles n struggles until kisses the peak of success. He thinks-"Failure is the key to the success. All successful people are once a failure." Characteristically, he's very kind, earnest, honest, wise, genuine, sincere, obedient, cooperative, understanding, disciplined, truthful, respectful, faithful, helpful, magnanimous & laborous. Whatever he starts leaves only with the completion. He's the guy to trust upon who never betrays anyone. And thus he's admired, loved & appreciated by all. He's not atheist, trusts in God, believes in religion but not so far. He's a nature lover, a peace lover & a freedom lover. He doesn't bother anyone's interference in his private life. He says-"Rule life via own rule." No one is immortal in this world. All are mortals by birth. Only the immortal thing in this world is name & fame. So, he encourages all the GUYS N GALS to gain name & fame with some extraordinary deeds. He says-"Don't do ordinary, don't be ordinary. Do extraordinary, be extraordinary." No one can entirely recognize him within a very short span of time. His recognition consumes a long time duration. Probably, he knows himself the best rather than the rests. He says-"No one can judge you. You are the only one." He's a multitalented extraordinary guy. One who fails to recognize him, calls him fool & insane. He somewhat seems like a philosopher as well. Singing, dancing, playing guitar, drums, keyboards, writing lyrics & composing, listening to songs & FM programs, watching movies & TV programs, making penpals & phonepals, drawing, skating, swimming, fishing, boating, photography, videography, tour, etc. come under his hobbies. In games, he loves videogames, football & badminton the most. And jokefully, CD player is his favourite player! Sky blue is his favourite colour & pink rose, the favourite flower. He admires & loves people who are music crazy, frank n funny. Of course, he follows fashion but is not so fashionable. He's a guy with simple living & high thinking indeed. He simply hates politics, has no more interest into it.

Akash remains lost into music almost all the times. He says-"Music is my drug, music is my heartbeat, music is my soul, music is my life, my life-company, my lover forever, my everything!" He's not a drug addict but is a music addict indeed. He just can't stay free for a while sans music. He feels as if his heartbeat ceased. He really loves music, really loves! He's really crazy for music, really crazyreally crazy! He's quite lonely in nature but never feels lonely as long as there's music. He remains so concentrated into music that he even forgets his sleep, thirst & hunger. There're all sorts of numerous worthful creative songs by him, both in English & Nepali, sufficient for dozens of audio albums but yet hasn't released even a single. He's soon gonna do it. All are music lovers by birth but all are not crazy for music. His family, relatives & friends are quite amazed to see his such a craze in music. There's no such histoy of musical background in his pre-generation. He's gonna set a new history of it for his future generation. In school, he was pretty popular among his pals. On one side, he was very much talented in study & so in extracurricular activities while on the other, he used to entertain among friends singing beating desks & tables in blank classes & tiffin breaks. He was almost forward in every aspect. He was the hero of his school. As morning shows the day, it seemed that he'll definitely be a reputed n popular pop star one day. It seemed that he'll certainly succeed in fulfiling his aim.

Akash, though being courageous enough, still lacks courage to approach & speak with gals. He falls nervous & goes dumbfounded whenever he faces gals. Of course, he's familiar with the family love but is yet unfamiliar with the love of a sweetheart. During his school life, he broke several delicate hearts of several cute gals who loved him crazily. He used to fear to fall in love & thus usually used to stay far away from gals as he was very much conscious about his study & future. He sacrificed several such golden chances of love affairs this way. Of course, he's heard & known about love & romance but has never experienced. Along with the passage of time & age, he began to be curious about love & romance, began to sink into the imagination of an unknown lover, began to lose into sweet dreams of an unknown sweetheart.

Akash used to suggest everybody saying-"Never ever fall crazy for anyone. It's your failure. Make someone fall crazy for you. It's your success." But unfortunately, Akash himself became the victim. He couldn't erase out the image of a gal from his mind whom he saw for the first time on the first day of campus. He fell very much crazy in love with the gal which was his failure according to his attitude. He knows neither her name nor her address. He photographed her image within his heart thro' the lens of his eyes. The gal stayed in his heart via the way of his eyes. He begins remaining losing all the times in the memories of the gal, begins sending several love messages for the gal in the FM programs & magazines. Though he'd seen, met & talked to several cute gals, no one had been able to win over his heart. But amazingly, the gal succeeded in enchanting his heart at the first sight. He really loves the gal from the depth of his heart, really wanna make his own forever n ever n ever as he frequently says-"Love one to make own. Love not just for fun." He wanna approach & speak to the gal but lacks courage to do so. His craze of music is now beaten by the craze of the gal, beaten by the craze of love. Now the gal's been the music for him, she's been the music of his life. He's now really experienced love. He used to create lyrics thro' imagination, thro' creative emotion but now he creates lyrics thro' experience, thro' realistic emotion. The number of lyrics goes on increasing day by day. The lyrics are comparatively more splendid profoundly dedicated to the gal.

                        Akash loses interest on his studies. He begins visiting campus just to watch the gal. He feels quite unpleasant & leaves campus early whenever he finds the gal absent. He's very open kinda guy, speaks out whatever comes in his mind even breaking off the privacy. As in school, he's very popular among his friends in campus as well. All are familiar with his love affair with the gal. Seeing his miserable condition, once they suggested him-"It's not wise to be self-troubled depressing the feelings within heart. Go, approach & pour out the entire feelings for her within your heart. If she agrees, then it's fine. And if not, no matter, she's not the only gal in this world. Lots are others." This suggestion encouraged him to approach the gal. Incredibly, he approached & talked to the gal. She introduced herself as Usha from Kamalpokhari. But she denied to give her phone number. He inquired if she'd any boyfriends. With a bit hesitation, she replied yes. Akash was very much curious to know about her boyfriend but she explained no more. He got depressed hearing that she's already a boyfriend. He couldn't speak further thereafter. However, even a brief conversation with her was a GREAT achievement for him. The day was Valentine's Day. He offered her a greeting card. She nervously accepted. He got overwhelmed by an unfathomable glee. It was one of his happiest & unforgetable events of his life. The class was over. Everybody left out except him. He began thinking of her. "She's really a beautiful n fragrant Kamal at Kamalpokhari", he confessed. And soon wrote out a romantic lyric in her name. 

Akash soon gets introduced to a gal named Sonika who's very much intimate to Usha. He gains lots of informations about Usha from her. He comes to know that the original name of Usha is Sunita & she stays at Naxal. As gals usually lie about themselves, Akash doesn't mind anymore. Whatever her original name is, he prefers to call her by the name Usha. Akash tells everything to her which he'd not been able to tell Usha. Sonika, with a fear that Usha gets angry with her, denies to give her contact number even promising that he tells nobody.  She says that they both stay nearby. She's not sure about the boyfriend of Usha. Akash keeps questioning over questions. Sonika gets fatigued replying his every question. She pleads to ask Usha himself. She even suggests him to forget her.

                        Akash once conveys a written love message to Usha via one of his friends but she tears it not even reading a single word. The tearing of the paper into pieces acts like the tearing of his heart into pieces. Akash then breaks down the wall of fear & sits with Usha together with no hesitation. He complains her about the deed she did. She boastfully replies-"Malaai ke matlab?" He gets flabbergasted. Meanwhile, there comes a guy & calls Usha. Akash jokefully inquires her if he is her boyfriend. She replies yes with a smile but he doesn't believe. Probably, she's joking too. "Tit for tat!" Usha & the guy proceed a funny conversation. In order to clarify his doubt, Akash inquires the guy if he is her boyfriend. Following the signals of Usha, he replies yes with a bit hesitation. He congratulates the guy, leaves the seat & welcomes to be seated next to the gal. He gets overwhelmed by a profound melancholy. Meanwhile, he gets introduced to a gal, Asmita, a music student. She suggests him not to be so much crazy for such a proud gal. She consolates him telling that she was also very much crazy in love with a guy but the guy didn't care him at all, couldn't understand her love anymore. The guy is now with a girlfriend of his own. And thus she left dreaming of the guy. Akash loses all his tension gaining her consolation. He finds her very friendly, frank n funny which he wanted to see in Usha. Asmita is not so pretty in appearance but is quite pretty within. She exposes several gestures of admiring him. Akash too admires her but doesn't love her. He only loves a gal & the gal is none other than Usha. Perhaps, Asmita feels jealous about Usha, she doesn't wanna hear anything about her. Several months passed. Akash & Usha couldn't be close to each other but amazingly, within  few days, Akash & Asmita became so intimate to each other. Akash feels GREAT to have such a friend like her.

Akash, no sooner, gets introduced with the guy. Both become good friends in a while. Bibek, the guy, says Usha is just a friend of him & nothing more than that. He simply talks & chatts with her just for the sake of friendship. She's proud. So, he doesn't admire her so much nor he loves so far. He complains about the event in the class, suggests Akash not to go that way coz gals don't prefer open love as they wanna keep it secret. He's very much amazed to see his such a craze of love & his extraordinary way of loving. He says gals get even prouder if guys die for them. He promises that he'll try his best for his successful love affair. As others, he also suggests him to forget the gal for the sake of his bright future & career, for the sake of his welfare. He suggests not to spoil life just for a gal & for a gal like her!

 Akash, though in love, hasn't yet directly spoken the common three words to Usha. He wants may she know by herself. However, he's exposed his craziness writing-"I love U Usha" on the desks & the walls of classes. Usha herself is a psychology student but hasn't known his psychology yet. She may also be pretending to be unknown even knowing or she may be weak in psychology as well! As Akash, she's also a music student. She may be taking it simply as a subject of study but she may not know about Akash's future musical career. Once, in a running class, he asks her book in pretence of study & returns later with a love letter within it. But the gal's so clever that she immediately checks out the book & throws the letter back to him. Akash, in class, sits just straight behind Usha in the next row which is his usual position. His entire attention falls upon the gal & not in study at all. The gal's not so beautiful indeed but due to regular facing, reacting n responding, she's been quite lovely to him, she's been a part of his life. The gal, in fact, is very proud. Due to her pride, she's disliked & thus doesn't have more friends as well. Perhaps, she thinks herself as a fairy queen. Akash is very much crazy in altruistic, platonic n passionate love with her but she doesn't care him at all. However, he admires her pride & loves joking n debating with her. Who knows? She may be ignoring externally & may be loving internally! She's already lied a lot about herself & she might be lying about her boyfriend as well! She might not even have any boyfriends at all! So, with the expectation & confidence of once getting her as a girlfriend, once winning over her heart, Akash is carrying on & on. He's lots of things to tell her, lots of things to listen from her but the gal doesn't let any opportunities to do so. She neither speaks properly nor responds to any of his letters.

( To be continued in the next issue )